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Why me?


its ade
already 20.
fight for it.
its stil gonna b mine
yea it is.

I wish for..


  • cash
  • mini coupe
  • more commission
  • relax-time
  • new job


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Saturday, September 09, 2006

09.09 (sat)

was dragged up to go to grandpa's hse... didnt stay for very long... left and had lunch and the nearby foodcourt... i bought 2 hp stick-ons from japan ($12.70) in total... the boss was a japanese... and the stick on was good (trial and tested by 4d3L) lolx...

home... watched 10 vcd of 'Jin San Soon' for the day... i intend to cont later... haha... i din want to go out for the weekend... i want to be well before next fri! :)

08.09 (fri)

went to work sickly... settle my interview for the mornin... and told SM am goin back 1/2 day to see the doctor... was coughin badly for the day since mornin... and my sore throat... the pain can be felt in my ears as well... its tat bad...

no lunch at home... went to c doctor... i refused to take the cough syrup... (i finished 2 bottles and it doesnt helps so no point)... I asked for lozenges instead... $22 and 1/2 day MC... went to had duck noodles... e porridge stall has closed for the day... sighs...

din realy feel like goin for the interview... for the income auditor position... its quite a walk from the bus stop... faints... mum accompany me... bought a light beidge color bag and the shoppin centre nearby $65/ made in japan ;) i noe i noe bag again... haha but wat to do... i like it!

home... its very inconvenient to go home from tat place... i think better not work ther... but den again... the hotel is very very nice and quite high tech :) 5 stars... their workin hrs 9-6! (nice) when i reached the office at 6.30pm... most pple has already left for the dae (the accounts department)... the work volumn was 9 times lesser than when i worked in RC Hotels... but den again... it seems like their budget for the position is quite low... (think i wont consider tat... hmm) besides the financial controller is quite new there... he asked if i wld accept $1500 (he's crazy or wat? i earned ther or more now...) i told him tat will depends on the overall package...

went bugis to take 960 home... phew... tired... after e medication... alex called... asked where i was and was quite puzzled y i am home on the weekend (nt tat i wanted... i juz want to get well and hav lotsa rest...hehe)...he wont be workin on sun as well... hmmm...there's somethin abt him... i like his character... but not his lifestyle though... very 'chiong' haha...

slept at 2+am. zzZzzz

07.09 (thurs)

got alex sms to wake him up at 12noon

my eyes were a line... i cld hardly open them... am late anyway... i almost knock on my keyboard...

ard 12.55noon den i realised i forgot to call alex... faints.. i called and his phone was engaged... ah he's awake... phew... nv knew y he wanted me to giv him mornin calls though... hmmm....

lunch was quiet... jo was kinda angry with amy... with a very small matter... well at times jo can be very un-understandin and selfish... phattt...

SM passed jo our BF1 (3pax) $100 reward (nt very rewarding for $40+K sales)... hmm... and we decide to save it for aft e "Oktoberfest event" (next fri) "outing"...

cough is worse... sore throat is confirmed back... phattt.

06.09 (wed)

the 'norm' dae... and the sore throat juz got worst... Dr Steven Ang medicine... i finished it all... the cough is stil as bad... or worst i shld say...

cont' the SWOT analysis and SM talked abt transparency and honesty... good... and i shot him back abt being transparent and honest with the company's sales... if not how will we noe if the comp is makin money and how much is he givin us for variable bonus... he went quiet and said... 'of course... of course... i have yet to find out the formula... i will check with the accountant..." rubbish isnt it!...

its abt 7+pm now... went Mad Flemming with amy and ellen... drank Hoegarden, had pizza and fried wings... i only drank 1/2 pint... (tis is a torture... half pint... my gawd!)... too bad am still havin the irritatin cough and sore throat is comin back... argh... i cldnt care much...

we chatted... and i pop e question to amy "u like Joseph (her ex of abt 2 yrs) more than ur current bf (of 4 yrs)?"... and she answer str8: "yes..." and ellen questioned y they broke and stuffs... its quite understandable... the way joseph lives... doesnt quite fit wit amy's lifestyle... love is complicated... and yes amy mentioned if joseph had tried to woo her back harder... she will be with him again... (btw joseph is alex fren and so they shared the same kinda lifestyle)

we all left for home ard 10.30pm... wish it was fri...

05.09 (tue)

he's back... stan. i mean... and so he called... picked up e call... and tried to ask me questions again to start a conversation... hanged up not long aft... he smsed... ask abt the umbrella... and whether i can meet him this week... "nope... see first... (i dun think so at all)..." was my reply...

and he replied..."u mean we wont meet again? i thought we were stil together last week.."

wtf is wrong wit this guy.... damn stan. who does he think he is... craps... its all one-sided love by him and he knew me less than a month to even be so questionin... and cant he get it tat he shld back off and we shld juz be frens... and now i guess we shldnt remain frens... taken into account the fact he treats his frens/colleagues rudely... yucks... turn off...

anyway my reply to his tat sms... "since when were we together... can u kindly leave me alone for now... thanks." (and tis ends it all) his reply " sorry... i wont bother u anymore... take care..."

finally... wat a day. not to mention the day ended with the half way finised SWOT... tat stupid SM wanted to talk abt... 7.30pm... my god!

gt a call from Roland for interview on fri... alright and i fixed it at 6.15pm....(amara hotel)

04.09 (mon)

it suxs to be back at work when u r stil sick... meeting day... and Jo was on leave... SM blabbered abt the sales again... and blahblahblah as usual...

stan. called to ask wat was the movie title i mention (he's in malaysia) i know he's bein nice but everythin he does has made me 'upset'... i dun like things to be tis fast... and the Fact. I Dont Like him. and so i replied.. "Euro Trip..."... he said i hav been findin for sometime... i guess they dont sell it here..." me: "it doesnt matter alright... bye..."

silence from his end... Silence is good.

on the bus home i am so tired... slpt.

03.09 (sun)

basically am home the whole dae... bunkin in hurhurh :) shiok... probably due to the medication effects too -_-"


Why do this to me?
Saturday, September 09, 2006


u knew it
if u've meant to let me noe
it shld've been done.
so dont come knockin at my door
to tell me it all now.
and thats a simple because,
i dont wish to hear abt it.
u gave me the headaches n heartpains.
its over.
its too late.



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