Sunday, June 18, 2006
as much as i wanted to have to more special and memorable 21st... i knew wat i wanted was impossible... so its either havin the impossible comes true or not celebrating it at all... all i want was a get-away rest & relax "holiday"...
only till day that i realise... y pple oways say children are the most fortunate... they dont hav to be buried by thoughts and everything else the cruel world bought about... am not tryin to be pessimistic here... juz stating the facts... as each of us grow up day by day... the lesser pple we cld trust... the more we sink into the evils of money and greed... the lesser good friends or should i say true friends are there.... every1 turns selfish...
and just a few mins ago... i chatted with mum... she told me dad cried last night counting the days left til my 21st... he mentioned he had wanted to give me a grand birthday... but unfortunately the work accident came about... he said he wanted to save till my 21st... hearing tis made me cried... tis thought of his will be the best present... and it is.
as much as tat... when i even think of who i will ask to celebrate my 21st with me... ther's not many pple i cld think of... those i thought were only those tat are closest... like ryn, ling, shuangru... and for sharon...( i know she hav changed, becoz of love failure she's throwin her life away... a pity.)... yes juz the 3 of them... but ling my best fren since sec sch... will be at Shanghai... so... left with 2... and other frens & "frens" i never very much wanted to celebrate with... nowadays its hard to noe who's real or reel but its better to believe your own...
and the truth... i nv enjoy celebratin birthday with frens... coz i nv feel their presence... surprisingly... in a way or another... or circumstances throughout my life so far... has already made me immune towards friendship... yes i suppose... since primary school... the world has turned bad enough towards me... i had 2 betrayin best fren... who stole from me... y?... i nv knew why...
gettin hunn's msg and call tis morning was heart-warmin... much misses and luv hunn... tk care dun work too hard... life's not only about working.
*just grant me peace for my 21st.
Wishes for now:
- to plate my lock & key necklace into real Gold
- a sewing machine
- an overseas trip ( & tk lotsa photos)
- hopefully i get one of my photgraphs appreciated
- to find a perfect job/career (tis prob take some time)
Why do this to me?
Sunday, June 18, 2006
