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Why me?


its ade
already 20.
fight for it.
its stil gonna b mine
yea it is.

I wish for..


  • cash
  • mini coupe
  • more commission
  • relax-time
  • new job


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Sunday, September 24, 2006

23.09

reached home at like 5am... slp slp til noon, up for lunch den slp again... all e way till 5.30pm... checked wit sharon if we're meeting... nope it was cancelled... lulu make things so ugly... she expect sharon to drive always... so when sharon says she's nt drivin, lulu say she's not feeling well... den sharon ask y not meet somewher near lulu's place... lulu suggested Wala... den sharon mention mayb she will ask brandon along... (sharon bf)... lulu ask "does ur bf drives?"... totally pissed sharon off... well well if i were sharon i will be pissed as well... wat is lulu thinkin?... no car, no fren?! she sucks big time, almost all the time

anyway headed chinatown with mum, bro n sis... the lanterns display were nice... had dinner... at the street stalls... hokkien mee, satay beehoon, pau, fried banana, wu xiang, ah boiling peanut soup with tang yuan, cold chesnut drink... sounds like a feast... haha

shopped abit... bought mooncake & a pair of heels... den walked all the way to the bus interchange area for 190... coz the road was closed till 11pm... reached home near 12... sheesh~

22.09

work was busy... sales was slow... and the month is ending... lookin forward to the comin PH!!! made an appointment with carmen, afterwhich i met sis... had dinner at Mac's... shopped abit and went for a movie at Cine, "John Tucker Must Die"... pretty funny... met Ming Yao n Wee Kiat at PS... and tat crazy Ming Yao went to get the ah-gua number (he-she is workin @ 7-11, keep smiling... faints)

meet marcus ard 4am... he offered to come fetch me... but wat abt sis... (coz he's ridin bike..) so met him at plaza instead lo... passed me back my cd... like finally!... headed home shortly... am beat.

21.09

work. met William at The Cathay to watch 'The Banquet', the graphics and story werent too bad... but the endin... was rather disappointing... well well... impression of zhang zi yi in the movie... a greedy lady... and she looks like a hooker to me... phaattt... when the movie ended... it was about 9+pm... starving... went to basement to had Japanese food... Katsu Don for me... not very nice... so next time dun go the restaurant!...

decided to go home... he offered to send me to my door... oh well.. alrite...

reached home. bathe. slp.

20.09

work. home. watch 'Bu Ye Cheng' on channel U... Yishun Ave 1 was a place for car lovers who "edits" their car with the best sound system...paint... blah blah... and the restaurant at 2 Murray Street... serves some Cactus dish! wow... haha... and the flowers wholesaler i suppose... near Thomson Road is cool~ 24hrs i guess... sleep.

19.09

work. home. slp

18.09

work. meeting... bad interview numbers... wat to do... not my fault ehx... tired. very tired. i hate mondays totally! argh. home. slp.


Why do this to me?
Sunday, September 24, 2006

Sunday, September 17, 2006

17.09

i slpt @ 7am... haha... well coz i slpt at 6pm-12midnite for 16.09... tired... juz very tired... like i say i duno y... i guess i am juz sick of everything... and earnin money shall be my goal...

woke up at 2+pm... bathe and had lunch at 3pm... messed up lifestyle... yea... who cares!... do wat i like is wat i care... went to grandpa hse... mum, bro n sis already there... browse through the Ikea magazine... nice if i can hav a small place of my own... well... sighs... laters...

decide to watch a movie for the day... went tiong bahru to watch The Host with sis n bro... pretty nice... its abt wat your closest will do for u... but too bad the lil girl died... but she was brave enuf...

oh yar... bought 2 skirts frm double index at $15 :)... a top at $26.90... alrite.. i spent again... well... juz feel like spendin... haha... mrt cum bus home at 9.15pm...

home... i guess i shld slp soon too...


Why do this to me?
Sunday, September 17, 2006

Saturday, September 16, 2006

15.09

i prob hav tired bugs all over me. i am stil tired even if i slp early. weird. woke up slightly earlier today, packed my stuffs to my new bag, tonite its girls nite out.

he handed us the $100 after the email Jo sent him for reminder. we mux hav it. SM say ther will be some1 joinin us soon, another one. phatt. so sick of the ever high turnover rate.

we only left office at 6.30pm. it was drizzling. sighs. took cab from kallang to Waterfront and walked over to waterplace for the "oktoberfest"... and it turns out to be showrooms for condo sales... nice place, but not for us ladies yet. haha. there's free dinner and German beer though. we left at 9pm to head to Boat Quay.

initially intend to go White Bar (KTV pub), but its crowded and smokey... headed BQ Bar (food music bar)instead... the drinks were fairly priced, full of ang mohs but the music was nice... fun people and crowd... :) 12 noon and we headed to Sentimental (KTV pub)... amy wanted to go... ig uess to c if joseph will be ard... but nah he wasnt... Jo let after a glass of Heinekein... i had 2... we sang our songs... and left at 3.30am... alex came by... din accompany him though he asked... i am very very very tired. cab home with amy.

14.09

reached office on the dot. SM greeted me mornin... weird. karan reached at 9+am, he oso greeted her mornin... tryin to b nice huh, scare we oso resign haha. dae was pretty slow, lunch at wanton mee was bad, standard drop, and its gettin filthy. yucks.

left at 6.30pm. visit grandpa at SGH, he goin home tml. and he cant rem. my name. had porridge for dinner, had spring onion frog legs as well, yum. i bought a shirt at $18, headed home afterwhich. tired.

13.09

still tired. anyway jessie met bob (dbs hr) for the LOA, says she need to consider, wth, guess as much she wont take the job. and the fukin problem is becoz of her case, my rates are screwed.

argh. home for bed. sinyee last day with the comp. 4 cases of resignation, how bad can things get.

12.09

late again. wat to do i dun feel like goin to work at all. SM wasnt happy of coz who cares. am leavin early today oso.

11.09

late for work. meeting sux, we asked for the $100 we deserve. anyway glynnis left us. (the consultant tat join less than a month. and SM fukin disgraced karan for her sales figures.

10.09

bunk in.


Why do this to me?
Saturday, September 16, 2006

Saturday, September 09, 2006

09.09 (sat)

was dragged up to go to grandpa's hse... didnt stay for very long... left and had lunch and the nearby foodcourt... i bought 2 hp stick-ons from japan ($12.70) in total... the boss was a japanese... and the stick on was good (trial and tested by 4d3L) lolx...

home... watched 10 vcd of 'Jin San Soon' for the day... i intend to cont later... haha... i din want to go out for the weekend... i want to be well before next fri! :)

08.09 (fri)

went to work sickly... settle my interview for the mornin... and told SM am goin back 1/2 day to see the doctor... was coughin badly for the day since mornin... and my sore throat... the pain can be felt in my ears as well... its tat bad...

no lunch at home... went to c doctor... i refused to take the cough syrup... (i finished 2 bottles and it doesnt helps so no point)... I asked for lozenges instead... $22 and 1/2 day MC... went to had duck noodles... e porridge stall has closed for the day... sighs...

din realy feel like goin for the interview... for the income auditor position... its quite a walk from the bus stop... faints... mum accompany me... bought a light beidge color bag and the shoppin centre nearby $65/ made in japan ;) i noe i noe bag again... haha but wat to do... i like it!

home... its very inconvenient to go home from tat place... i think better not work ther... but den again... the hotel is very very nice and quite high tech :) 5 stars... their workin hrs 9-6! (nice) when i reached the office at 6.30pm... most pple has already left for the dae (the accounts department)... the work volumn was 9 times lesser than when i worked in RC Hotels... but den again... it seems like their budget for the position is quite low... (think i wont consider tat... hmm) besides the financial controller is quite new there... he asked if i wld accept $1500 (he's crazy or wat? i earned ther or more now...) i told him tat will depends on the overall package...

went bugis to take 960 home... phew... tired... after e medication... alex called... asked where i was and was quite puzzled y i am home on the weekend (nt tat i wanted... i juz want to get well and hav lotsa rest...hehe)...he wont be workin on sun as well... hmmm...there's somethin abt him... i like his character... but not his lifestyle though... very 'chiong' haha...

slept at 2+am. zzZzzz

07.09 (thurs)

got alex sms to wake him up at 12noon

my eyes were a line... i cld hardly open them... am late anyway... i almost knock on my keyboard...

ard 12.55noon den i realised i forgot to call alex... faints.. i called and his phone was engaged... ah he's awake... phew... nv knew y he wanted me to giv him mornin calls though... hmmm....

lunch was quiet... jo was kinda angry with amy... with a very small matter... well at times jo can be very un-understandin and selfish... phattt...

SM passed jo our BF1 (3pax) $100 reward (nt very rewarding for $40+K sales)... hmm... and we decide to save it for aft e "Oktoberfest event" (next fri) "outing"...

cough is worse... sore throat is confirmed back... phattt.

06.09 (wed)

the 'norm' dae... and the sore throat juz got worst... Dr Steven Ang medicine... i finished it all... the cough is stil as bad... or worst i shld say...

cont' the SWOT analysis and SM talked abt transparency and honesty... good... and i shot him back abt being transparent and honest with the company's sales... if not how will we noe if the comp is makin money and how much is he givin us for variable bonus... he went quiet and said... 'of course... of course... i have yet to find out the formula... i will check with the accountant..." rubbish isnt it!...

its abt 7+pm now... went Mad Flemming with amy and ellen... drank Hoegarden, had pizza and fried wings... i only drank 1/2 pint... (tis is a torture... half pint... my gawd!)... too bad am still havin the irritatin cough and sore throat is comin back... argh... i cldnt care much...

we chatted... and i pop e question to amy "u like Joseph (her ex of abt 2 yrs) more than ur current bf (of 4 yrs)?"... and she answer str8: "yes..." and ellen questioned y they broke and stuffs... its quite understandable... the way joseph lives... doesnt quite fit wit amy's lifestyle... love is complicated... and yes amy mentioned if joseph had tried to woo her back harder... she will be with him again... (btw joseph is alex fren and so they shared the same kinda lifestyle)

we all left for home ard 10.30pm... wish it was fri...

05.09 (tue)

he's back... stan. i mean... and so he called... picked up e call... and tried to ask me questions again to start a conversation... hanged up not long aft... he smsed... ask abt the umbrella... and whether i can meet him this week... "nope... see first... (i dun think so at all)..." was my reply...

and he replied..."u mean we wont meet again? i thought we were stil together last week.."

wtf is wrong wit this guy.... damn stan. who does he think he is... craps... its all one-sided love by him and he knew me less than a month to even be so questionin... and cant he get it tat he shld back off and we shld juz be frens... and now i guess we shldnt remain frens... taken into account the fact he treats his frens/colleagues rudely... yucks... turn off...

anyway my reply to his tat sms... "since when were we together... can u kindly leave me alone for now... thanks." (and tis ends it all) his reply " sorry... i wont bother u anymore... take care..."

finally... wat a day. not to mention the day ended with the half way finised SWOT... tat stupid SM wanted to talk abt... 7.30pm... my god!

gt a call from Roland for interview on fri... alright and i fixed it at 6.15pm....(amara hotel)

04.09 (mon)

it suxs to be back at work when u r stil sick... meeting day... and Jo was on leave... SM blabbered abt the sales again... and blahblahblah as usual...

stan. called to ask wat was the movie title i mention (he's in malaysia) i know he's bein nice but everythin he does has made me 'upset'... i dun like things to be tis fast... and the Fact. I Dont Like him. and so i replied.. "Euro Trip..."... he said i hav been findin for sometime... i guess they dont sell it here..." me: "it doesnt matter alright... bye..."

silence from his end... Silence is good.

on the bus home i am so tired... slpt.

03.09 (sun)

basically am home the whole dae... bunkin in hurhurh :) shiok... probably due to the medication effects too -_-"


Why do this to me?
Saturday, September 09, 2006

Saturday, September 02, 2006

02.09 (sat)

woke up early... went to singapore poly with bro n mum... bro was selected out of many Gunbound players... to compete for the SEA... games n games world championship (GGWC) event... winners get to fly to korea for free for the competition.. unfortunately... in his row of 4 pax... he was 1 of the 2 tat was out... 1 of the player was a ger who got champion last SG competition and went to bangkok for another competition as well... anyway one of bro's gunbound play mate came to see him play... hmmm bro was kinda sad he had lost... but he understood tat the other players were even stronger... and tat he was the youngest, 12 yrs old... the rest were mostly sec sch guys or guys in their early 20s...

bro is such a gamer.

went to redhill to buy medicine... damn exp. $66... hmmx...

had lunch at Scotts Ajisen... ramen ramen... ton toro ramen was nice... my miso vegetable ramen was ok only... and mum had crayfish ramen... total was $56+ with 3 side dishes, 3 hot green tea and peach yogurt mochi ;) hurhur.

shopped at OG... ther's sales... bought a shirt, a tee and dad's socks. sis came to meet me... we went to meet steph while she was havin her breaktime.. they chatted for awhile... and soon we went home... so tired we slpt on the bus...

suppose to meet mum n dad to go dinner... but decided to head home and ask them to buy back... haha!... realy tired... home finally. slacked ard.

goin slp, tml stil goin grandpa's hse.

01.09 (fri)

bad morning... stan called again!... early in the mornin... my god... din answer... and so he msged to say tat he thought it through and noe its his fault... apologize again... argh

slow paced work... eyes cld nearly open... stan called at noon... answered and spoke without interest... he acted stupid and asked abt me meetin himt he next week so he can pass me the umbrella... wat the fuk!... put down the fone... den he smsed to say... the chat was relaxin.. and tat its his fault he tried too hard to pls me the past few days... mentioned tat i was the kind of ger with the characters he always wanted... utterly crapx.

i was quite very sick now... met mum to dinner at plaza... the clinic was closed... so i cldnt buy my medicine :( the cough is killing me already... big time.

stan msged again to say tat honey water is good for sorethroat... and blah.. (smsed coz i din pick up his call again) dont he ever get it?!... i hav got a nut-case pestering me. Help. 999

31.08 (thur)

got a few orders... faints... hmmm... sharon called... sayin to meet up with stanley n brandon... she wanted to speak to stan. abt the problem... anyway hav agreed to go to Expo... for the Comex fair... alritey... very tired... i din wish to speak so i left everything to sharon n brandon... besides i was fumin inside... coz he's so irritating... forcing to hold my hand. imagine tat! crapz.

every1 was later than 7.30pm... fuked up, so tired and stil waiting... alex called me to chat with me how nice :) hehe... stan reached first... and told i was angry... nope i was fuken irritated!... tried to "calm" me like i was a baby... WTF... it juz gross me out... called mum to call me... and chatted all the way til sharon came... pissed... very pissed... dinner was Orange Julius bacon n cheese hotdog bun... faints

the guys took the damn long time to get the stuffs... basically... its stan who took the longest time!... argh... til the place closed... brandon suggested Bedok Blk 85... the minced meat noodle soup base was yummy! :)... tat stan ordered other fried food stuffs and wanted me to eat... nuts or wat?... am havin the cough and the sorethroat is comin back... juz cant be bother with him...

sharon n brandon spoke to him... and he apologize and apologize... via sms... called me, but i don c a point to answer his call... den he started bein lame to ask me when i want to collect my umbrella from him... told him i dun need it... he can hav it... he insisted on returnin... by meetin me... KAOX... such person exist in the world... i cant stand tis man!... i didnt bother to reply his sms anymore.

tired. very tired. slpt. nightmare.

30.08 (wed)

i cant really remember wat went on at work i was brain dead... met sharon for lunch at Mos burger...

told him all abt tat stan. i cant stand his pestering anymore... not to mention its very pressure-Rising!.. she totally understood... and she mentioned she will 'kai dao' stanley... lolx tat will be cool...

ended work at 6.30pm... headed town to meet ling and shangwei... at Wheelock Fish n Co... shangwei stil the same old boyish look! haha... tanned and nice dress sense... :) different from wat he was 4yrs ago... long time fren... lolx... ling was late again... faints... we ordered seafood platter... and new york fish n chips... nice :) and ther was 2 birthdays goin on in the restaurant... pretty fun.. :) and so ling is go back shanghai on fri, 1st Sept...

home.

29.08 (tue)

work was slow... not much candidates available... sheesh

stan. called and sms again... told him str8 i wasnt free to tok... even if he made time at work to call me for awhile... such a pester.. he wanted to meet me today... told him am goin for interview... he mentioned he dont mind... told him sister was meeting me for dinner... coz no food at home... he actually asked me to tell my sister to meet her gf or go walk alone... fuk!... no way... i mentioned not to meet him... and he insisted to come along... cant stand it..

went for interview... sarah was a nice person... but the package and job she mentioned... i dont like it at all... i knew i will get the job... but i will decline... hmm...

after interview he called... phaatt... sis was waitin downstairs for me as well... we met... had dinner at Pastamania... he cldnt decide wat to eat... (and the place was wher he mention to hav dinner for... wat the hell...) i din wait... went order myself, for my own... very tired the whole dae...

he held my hand... i rejected emotionally... did he juz tot tat i will held some1 hand when i even noe them like lesser than a month... esp when i dun like tat some1 (him)... faints!... the shops were all closing... he still dragged to go home... me n my sis juz walked to humour him... very tired to even speak... soon i say... go home already... and he damn asked y?... and so i said "den u want to help those pple close shop izit!... besides i am very tired!..." and we headed home. Finally! my gosh!

28.08 (mon)

monday was super blue... my throat got abit better but nt the cough... work sux.. headed str8 home aft the meeting... phatt

got a call from Sarah (Marriott Vacation Club)... to hav an interview with her tml... oki..


Why do this to me?
Saturday, September 02, 2006

27.08 (sun)

I slpt the whole day! and the damn stanley tried to 'force' me to meet me... No waY!

26.08(sat)

woke up to go East Coast with sis for cyclin... it was initially planned with tat attitude lulu... and sharon... sharon failed to wake up... lulu cldnt get a reply from sharon on fri... and she decide to say she was goin out late and cldnt wake up at well... crapz...

had breakfast at PS macdonald... had hotcakes... its been a very very long time since i had these :) hurhur... cycled ard 1hr plus... and headed home soon after...

got smses from sharon n stanley (him again!)... it was for nick's dinner... hmm alrite... went East Coast again... faints... anyway i got a ring at Taka before headin down east coast... suppose to meet sharon... but my bus took like a damn long time!.... she asked stanley to pick me up instead...he went to the wrong place and i waited and waited... fuken irritated...

the dinner was a Ok only... they wanted to watch Frostbite... alrite... the show SUX big time!... home... very tired n sick... argh!...

25.08 (fri)

sister n me met sharon, brandon and stanley for dinner... they were goin zouk for nick's bday... already told tat bloody stanley i din want to go... and i am sick, he's stupid or wat?... argh!... went chinatown for porridge... shopped nth at wisma (late nite shoppin), and he stil dun1 to leave for nick's bday... eventually he din went... got a call from work tat he's workin early the nxt day... damn... asked ard... and sis said ok we go catch a movie... watched "Monster House" cute movie haha~

oh yea we went to find steph awhile as well... hmm... home at 1am or so... sheesh


Why do this to me?
Saturday, September 02, 2006


u knew it
if u've meant to let me noe
it shld've been done.
so dont come knockin at my door
to tell me it all now.
and thats a simple because,
i dont wish to hear abt it.
u gave me the headaches n heartpains.
its over.
its too late.



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